Children?????

So in an attempt to be helpful and a good sister I told my dear Erin that I would baby sit her kids on Friday night so her and Kimball could have a wonderful date night...At the get go everything was going well, but then I think Addy realized that her mommy wasn't there anymore. Pretty much an hour of screaming crying and sadness ensued. It was completely horrible. My father and Holt arrived home and tried to assist me in finding ways to make Addy happy, but to no avail the tears and heartbreak continued. The worse thing with Addy is that she has this pout she does with her bottom lip that really makes you want to cry yourself. Finally, Holt found a way to make her stop crying, that is what this video portrays (obviously I haven't figured out the flipping technique). She would only stop crying when Holt would be doing squats whilst holding her. Pretty soon she feel asleep on him for the next forty minutes. But really having a baby screaming in my ear for a good hour or so, I don't know about the whole idea of having children just yet...

...But then there was little Thomas; he was rather entertaining. Obviously his mommy is doing a wonderful job teaching him. I had to capture it on video. I love his cute little voice and the way he pronounces things. Even though it was rough trying to calm Addy down and it broke my heart to listen to her cry and cry and cry. I still love them!!! I guess that is what the whole unconditional love thing comes from. But at the same time I know for sure that I am not totally ready to be a mommy just yet. It will probably come one day and I am sure that Holt is hoping that it will come sooner than later (since he doesn't want to be an old man when our kids are grown up). But like everyone says it does come with time...and after this weekend I know I need some more time. I am not trying to make Erin feel bad at all and I hope this doesn't but it was a good reality check for me.